First cigarette, choking cough

Description: This is my first cigarette in years, i really wanted to do it for a long time, but i held back because i knew it was unhealthy. today my willpower has been broken. i can feel it, my head is going crazy, i want to smoke, immediately! i light a cigarett and the smoke enters my throat, i cough, but it's nothing, that's how it is at the beginning with cigarettes. i cough more and more, i feel my throat tighten. this horrible cough is getting stronger. tears are coming to my eyes, phlegm is running from my nose. i have to smoke until the end, despite everything.