Midnight pee desperation & panty wetting

Description: I’m determined not to waste a single pee but i’m also trying to hold on as long as possible. especially when woken up in the middle of the night by my desperate need to piss. i know that if i just get up and go i will be able to settle back in to bed and rest however i never do. reluctant to leave my cosy bed i lie there (this time for a whole 1.5hrs) in fetal position holding on tightly knowing full well that i will never make it until morning and i’m only sabotaging my night. by the time i got to the bathroom i couldn’t hold it anymore but i tried anyway. does anyone else like to make it even worse for themselves by looking at the toilet so that it triggers that increased urge or is that just me and my weird self?well, i didn’t wet the bed but i did take some satisfaction it wetting my knickers.