Dark Thoughts of Heavy Smokers

Description: I know you sometimes hate yourself because you are so weak that you can't resist cigarettes. i know you get anxious and panic when you think you're going to be without cigarettes for a few hours. but that's not necessarily a bad thing, it just means you're a heavy smoker like me. i often have black thoughts about a heart attack and lungs failure, which is normal considering how long and intensively i smoke. if i could, i'd prefer a heart attack, but with my existing lung problems i'm afraid i'll be out of luck.