Fitness to Fatness

Description: Three weeks of dieting and exercising and i can’t take it anymore. i really thought i could do it. it used to be so easy for me. but now i’m halfway through a home workout. out of breath, shaking, everything jiggling- and the cravings are undeniable.i need cake. i need a big meal. i need the heavy satisfaction of a full belly.right as i reach for my phone, i hear her. not a memory but an actual voice in my head. the fit little gym-bunny i used to be- buried hundreds of pounds deep inside me.she pleads with me: “you’ve worked so hard to find the motivation to go back to the gym. don’t undo it.” she reminds me of what it felt like to be fit and disciplined, of how effortless life was when clothes slid on instead of clinging, when eyes lingered on me for the right reasons.but cravings don’t care about my willpower. she warns me: “once you taste it- you lose control. completely.”and she’s right. fit may feel good. but fat tastes even better.